The Land of Hatred

Again, I walked alone along the corridor of your heart. 

I felt my feet touch the coldest land. 

I took a breath of poisoned air. 

I smelled something rotten like the worst betrayal. 

I picked a rose but it had turn blue.

I cried and black tear fells for the abandoned love.

*I just wanna say sorry. Please leave me. Let me knock the door of repentance. 

The Diary of A "Dilapidated" Swan

Last night, she almost "cut off her head" with a rusty jackknife. She was outta control. No thought. No wisdom.  Just a piece of boredom and loneliness. No meek fellowship. Yesterday and another previous day, she got quarrel with her boyfriend for trivial things. No comfort. Just resentment. Everyday is just like black and white painting. Nothing else. No blue. No violet. She is really pathetic sometimes.Really, she wanna see another world. In one night,she is dreaming of eating pizza in Italy, dancing Chaiya-Chaiya in India, hitchhiking Obama's official car namely Cadillac 1, or just sneaking in Holliwood Ball. 

She looked paler than ghost. Panda-eyed girl is a good alias for her. Staring at the 26-alphabet keyboard, her bad mood grew thicker and thicker. Tedious school affair, problems with coworker, spoiling daily grind had taught her to kick everything she faced....tore up paper for no good reason. She sat rotting in anger.

Until....somebody came to her. What so called "somebody" was not a prince from nowhere kingdom.  He was just a man who wanted to listen to her story. He didn't speak too much words. He merely let her cry. He did knows how fragile she is. And she knew well how dependable he is. 

Now, she realized he turned her tear into chuckles. She is sleeping now. She feels warm.

*When desperation slithers into every inch of our fibre......

Untuk Kau yang Menungguku

Kau pernah datang padaku......

Kau bilang aku wanita kampung yang menarik

Kau hadiahkanku boneka kecil berompi putih

Kau bilang "Ini kado dari pemuja rahasiamu"

Kau sangat membahagiakanku

Kau pernah merayuku.....

Tidak dengan berbait-bait puisi

Tidak dengan lagu lagu Melayu

Kau hanya bilang

"Kamu seperti boneka di etalase toko yang dipagari kaca".

Kau sangat menyanjungku.

 

Kau harus tahu,...

Aku sekarang sudah bisa berkerudung rapi.

Aku juga bisa membuat teh manis dengan takaran yang pas.

Aku ingin mengajakmu berkunjung ke Jame Walker's Private Library

Sekarang, kau tidak ada disampingku
Kau benar-benar pergi.

Pergi menghuni rumah di sebelah Tuhan.

Aku harap kau bisa melihatku tetap tersenyum di sini.

Tunggu saja, aku akan menyusulmu kelak.

Ode to My "Clown"

When the night falls

I am the one who want to light you up

When the sun rises

I am the one who want to wake you up

When the rain pours

I am the one who want to warm you up

Because 

I am a star,

I am a waker,

and I am a hot chocolate.

*For those who have made me crack smile. Thank you so much. I wish I could be anything for you.

To Sun, From Rain

He's just a sort of sun

Shining. Warming. Mesmerizing.

Standing so firm upon two peaks of mountains

I'm just kinda rain

Wet.Cold. Aloof.

Crawling upon the yellowish torn leaves

Too long, I stare at him

Looking at his fire-like eyes

Hoping that he taps my door 

and leaves me a bucket of rose 

Too shy, I peek at his narrow smile

Thinking that candy becomes less sweeter

and sugar goes plain

Hei  * , would that smile be given only for me?

                              ***

Note: For someone who dries my long-sleeves shirt.

Bandung, April 16, 2011 at 07:54

Sorry...I'm not that pathetic

You are such a boring stuff

Even worse than learning grammar

I'm fed up with speeches coming out from your mouth

Could you just zip it out

It's just enough for me to take a breath

Who the hell are you?

You're not my headmaster

You're just an awful orator 

Never think that I'll be a silly follower

I'm not that pathetic 

For somebody in somewhere

Sorry, I'm thinking of leaving you

Handsome Firefly

"When the night is so dark, they pours some light "

Such an old night.

I really don't feel right.

I need some light.

Suddenly, something comes to my sight.

Waw...a handsome firefly with four inch in height.

gives me some free-flight.

He takes me home and says "bonne nuit".

March 27, 2011     7.08 AM

For him, who gives me very big help. Thank you soooo much ;-)

Untuk Kau.....Sang Penawar Letih

Somebody said to me "Just smile, and your problem will fade away soon"

Suatu senja yang ranum,

Kau menyapaku lewat nyanyian para camar

Kau pakaikan gelang kaki pada nyiur yang menua

Kau bilang kau akan datang pada malam sabit

tepat pada saat punggung langit dikencani bidadari

By Martina Herawatiningsih

Bandung, March 24, 2011

*Untuk siapapun yang telah mengobati letihku

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